The future I already know
As I sit and reflect on the years that have passed, I am astounded by how much has actually occurred. I often find myself looking into the future when, in reality, I should take time to turn back and reflect on the past. To truly appreciate and be amazed by how much I have changed and grown into the woman I always dreamed of becoming. Becoming a writer who gets paid to write was a goal I set all those years ago, as I sat down and began writing poetry to push through the most heart-wrenching heartbreak I never thought possible to endure. Writing helped me process deep emotions that I struggled to understand, emotions that talking alone could not heal. The therapy of writing allowed me to see the world in a completely different way. I had to be careful with my words though, as they were so deep and raw that people found them difficult to read; as they mirrored emotions in their own lives that they were not yet ready to confront.
Through writing, I discovered a deeper understanding of myself, which led me to embrace a slower pace of life. Over the past ten years, I've adopted a slow living lifestyle that aligns with my soul’s needs. I could never return to the fast paced life of the modern world. I respect those who thrive in that environment, but for me, living by the beach for so many years has transformed me. My body thanks me for this life, my mind finds peace in it, and my soul embraces me with love for choosing not to step back into the chaotic world I left behind.
Becoming a mother has also played a significant role in my journey to now. Years ago, I doubted myself as a parent. I struggled as a single mom, constantly feeling like I was failing my children because I did not follow conventional parenting advice. My children did not conform to mainstream expectations; they pushed boundaries and often left me feeling very exhausted. But now, I understand. Now, I see the bigger picture. My soul knew, and their souls knew, that I was not raising children bound by past doctrines. I was raising children for the present world we live in. Their rebellious spirit and willingness to challenge rules have allowed them to succeed in their chosen paths and form meaningful connections. Trusting my intuition, despite how difficult it was at times, has truly paid off now that my kids are grown and thriving.
As my life continued to unfold and I reflect, I used to find myself dreaming of travelling to distant lands and ancient sites, places I always longed to visit, to experience their energy, and to connect with their history. What once seemed like a distant dreams now stand as a vivid memories. Looking at photos of myself standing before these sacred places, I realise that these dreams have materialised. This is proof of the power of believing in one’s dreams and working towards them with unwavering faith.
Perhaps this reflection isn’t just nostalgia; maybe it’s something more—a whisper from my future self, reminding me that everything I dream of now has already happened. Each word I write feels like a thread weaving together timelines, blurring the line between what is and what will be. Reiki has guided me in this journey, deepening my connection to my soul and the earth. It has taught me to trust the unseen energies that flow through my life, aligning me with the path that was always meant for me. I trust that every step I take today is guiding me toward the life I see so clearly, as if it’s already mine.
