Surrender

the truth about letting go

We’re told surrender means letting go so the universe can bless us. That all we have to do is trust, and life will happen for us.

But real surrender? It’s not that simple.

It’s not a soft exhale or a peaceful pause from worry. It’s not sitting still while everything aligns.

Surrender is raw. It’s uncomfortable. It’s letting go of everything you thought would stay, the roles, the routines, even the places you once called home.

I keep saying no more. I don’t want to do this again.

And yet, life keeps gently, steadily, pushing me forward. Breaking me open in ways I didn’t ask for.

I’m sitting in a house that’s not quite packed. Things are half in bags, half in corners. Memories I didn’t expect to feel today are rising quietly, as I try to hold it all together.

I’m not ready to move. Not again. Not to say goodbye to another version of myself, the one who believed that maybe this time, it would last.

Every home holds a dream. And each time I leave, it feels like I’m burying the one who first walked in. Hopeful. Willing. Wanting to believe in something permanent.

But this is what surrender has shown me.

It’s not about clinging. It’s about clearing.

And in the clearing, comes a kind of peace I never expected.

Because once you’ve truly surrendered, you stop needing life to look a certain way. You meet it as it comes, moment by moment, with a quiet knowing that whatever arrives next, you have the insight, the resilience, and the soul deep strength to move through it.

Even when your body walks through the day and your soul feels like it’s still floating somewhere above it all. Even when the connection to those you love feels distant. Even when your home begins to feel more like a memory than a place you belong.

Surrender has stripped me bare but it has also made space.

And in that space, something softer is starting to stir.

Not a plan. Not certainty. But a spark.

A whisper of what’s possible when you finally stop holding on so tightly, and allow the light to reach you, right here, exactly as you are.